All About Fags~~

i think many of u may have known,
yes~~ i smoke :P
n my mom has jus confirmed that with me a few hrs ago...
she asked if i smoke, i knew she knew d answer but i still had to lied,
she said i'm a big girl n i should noe wat is good for me, n said its enough that i've tried, i should stop...
i didn't answer...
i didn't noe how to...
i picked up d 'skill' 1 year ago, when i broke up with my ex (again~~)..
i fell into depression, n smoking was d only thing that stop me from killing myself...
but then, i didn't get hook on it, i soon stop smoking when i joined gym...
i got rid of alllll d bad energy i have by running countless hours on d treadmill..
n recently... i started again, n sad to admit... its getting heavier...
yes.. i broke up with my ex again (the same one) :P
but i don really think its all because of it..
many things had happen... n i jus got emo~~
i smoke when i'm alone, n i smoke even more when i'm emo...
how do i stop??
keep me happy ofcoz!! hahaha...
i may sound like a brat..
but trust me, i'm trying my best already to be optimistic..
but ppl tend to take advantage of me!!!
$#%$#&^%*$*
i don think i'll stop smoking soon, n i promise i'll try my best to keep it under control...
cross ur fingers that everything will be fine so i can stop smoking soon
:)

Singlehood~~

wondering how's my life post-break up??
hehe.. well, i've been busy n having LOADS of fun..
busy catching up with friends, busy clubbing, busy hanging out, busy yum-cha...
basically busy doing things i've missed out when i had a partner :P
i've watched at leastttt 7 movies in d past month with my faithful 'ji mui' (joe).. hehe
i've regained my image as a clubber :P
i've been to malacca's 8TV Summer Live Concert where i had a BLASTTTT...
i've been roaming around Klang Valley to satisfy my tastebuds..
i've been making a lot of new friends!!
haih~~ who said being single sucks??
i had more fun being single than having a mate.. haha
ofcoz there's the occasion where i felt lonely, due to all d extra time i have now, no need to waste time with him :P
ofcoz there's the rare occasion i miss him so dearly coz we had so much together for so long...
anyways... i believe i can go through all this.. i have my darling friends with me, helping me~~
i've never hated him nor regretting loving him...
i can never bring myself to hate a person, it's much easier to jus rmb the sweet parts ^^
we've made a deal not to contact each other for at least 6months because we wanted a clean cut...
i wonder wat will hpn then?
will we feel awkward bumping into each other in a shopping mall?? hehe...
i still can't stop talking n thinking about him, his been popping in my mind every chance he gets..
i guess he will always be a part of me, but i seriously need to get rid of this bad habit...
i'm definately enjoying life as a single, but i'll never be afraid to fall in love again~~
still hopeful, anticipating, and anxious~~

Guys Who Dance!!!

don't ask me y, but i have always, Always been attracted to guys that can dance!!!
they jus send a strong 'magnetic wave' that manage to attract me!!
mayb its also that 'bad boy' image these guys always have, its a package.. hehe
guys that can move their body, most of the time have that bad boy look as well...
i went malacca y'day for the 8tv Summer Live Show,
n boy oh boy~~ i fell in LOVE with Show Luo Zhi Xiang!!!!!
that baby can move!!!!!!!!!
i read Cleo today and quote from it "relationship for people who are in 18-22 should be fun and not serious". it made me thought, yeah~~ i should have fun for awhile, and it works well for me coz i'm definately not ready for anything serious~ :P i guess this will make me feel less guilty for 'hanging out' with different guys.. hehe anyways.. nothing serious dong~~ fun fun fun!!!!

重要~~

对你来说我或许很重要,可是请原谅我察觉不到.
我明白你的表达能力很差,可是也请你明白我的需要.
不是我没有给你机会,而是你没有好好珍惜.
机会给了太多,变得没意思了.
机会给了太多,变得不重要了~
谢谢你让这一切发生,好让我彻底地死心.
不再抱着任何希望,努力地往前走.
我会好好地,我会很努力地抛开一切往前走.
偶尔回想起,我回记得我们曾经拥有的美好回忆.
我相信你是爱我的,可是你的爱让我的心好疼.
就让我们一起努力的学习放手,让彼此都有快乐的机会~
我对你的爱永远都不会变,
可是请原谅我没有继续爱你的勇气.

Introduction

yuuhuu~~ this would be my 4th blog, don't ask me what happened to the rest, cause i don't even remember the blog addresses.. hehehe.. i stopped blogging for awhile because i thought i poured too much and got too dependent on it. its quite dangerous how a person can let out so much on something so... insecured... different people may interpret differently on what you say, and something that should be private would just be another topic in school so fast... so why have i decided to open my 4th blog?? hahaha... well, for the same reason i stopped in the past, i needed a place to express myself ^^ but i'll be careful this time not to say too much, and would password-protect it if i think its too much..

which so much happening in my life right now, i would be updating this regularly~~ stay tuned!!