I Really Don't Know

i used to be so sure of what i want, and then i would do all i can to achieve it...
i used to be so sure of the 'path' i wanted to walk on, and i would dedicate all my energy on it...
but then again... i was young...
as we grow older, wiser and gain much experiences, our priority changes, views on life also changes, and hence, the things we want also changes.

i really do not know what i want right now,
i have never been so uncertain, i am feeling a bit scare...
i have never been so lost, i don't really feel like going on the journey...
i'm so lost, i don't know what to do now..
all i do now, is play play play, have fun and play...
all i want to do is that too,
please do not burden me with heavy questions nor question my actions..
i do not know and i don't want to know..
i just feel like flying in the clouds with no worries...
i just want to 'drift away'...
away from all the problems and worries in life,

i'm not being irresponsible, i just don't really want to think...
i'm afraid i can't get what i want,
i'm afraid things do not go my way,
i'm afraid i would cry,
i'm afraid of growing up...

i feel like puking when some one asks me what i wan,
i don't know how to answer it,
and i don't want to answer it..

i really don't know....

Thank You

first, i would like to thank Mr. OJ SIM for making it ALL happen ^^ (PS: you know what i mean right??)

next, i would like to thank everybody that have taken care of me during poppy... i'm really sorry for causing all the trouble and i didn't mean it!!! i swear!!! my first time sooooo serious~~ i wasn't even like that during PALL MALL event, nor at sanctuary.. haih~~ my clubber image ruin again~~

thanks to my kai jie for 'nagging' and taking care of my belongings,
thanks to kar wai for not leaving me alone,
thanks to clive kor kor for being my pillar of strength :P,
thanks to sook huay for taking care of me~~ even in the car,
thanks to alex,
thanks to james and huay shan for sending me home,
thanks to irene and chris and everybody else i forgot to mention...
was quite TIPSY so i couldn't remember much, besides i vomited on my LV *sobsssss* lesson learn - never bring LV to clubs.

LOVE ALLLLLLLL OF YOU, Wish ya all HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRR... meet at poh yuet's hse to gamble loooo~~ ^^