I Really Don't Know

i used to be so sure of what i want, and then i would do all i can to achieve it...
i used to be so sure of the 'path' i wanted to walk on, and i would dedicate all my energy on it...
but then again... i was young...
as we grow older, wiser and gain much experiences, our priority changes, views on life also changes, and hence, the things we want also changes.

i really do not know what i want right now,
i have never been so uncertain, i am feeling a bit scare...
i have never been so lost, i don't really feel like going on the journey...
i'm so lost, i don't know what to do now..
all i do now, is play play play, have fun and play...
all i want to do is that too,
please do not burden me with heavy questions nor question my actions..
i do not know and i don't want to know..
i just feel like flying in the clouds with no worries...
i just want to 'drift away'...
away from all the problems and worries in life,

i'm not being irresponsible, i just don't really want to think...
i'm afraid i can't get what i want,
i'm afraid things do not go my way,
i'm afraid i would cry,
i'm afraid of growing up...

i feel like puking when some one asks me what i wan,
i don't know how to answer it,
and i don't want to answer it..

i really don't know....