Disappointed

its been 2 months since i've graduated and i'm still unemployed.
i've been searching, i've attended interviews, and i actually got 2 offers,
but i've rejected them, because i don think its the path i wanna go...

i actually gained from each interviews,
i would realise how shallow i am, how naive i am, and how unprepared i am for the real world,
each interview would teach me a bit more about myself, so i would need to work on my flaws and prepare more for the next one...
each interview that rejects me makes me feel like a failure..
i would wonder why have i failed,
i would wonder what my competitors have that i don't?
i begin to question myself, because i really cannot accept this happening...

i never expected it to be so difficult,
i never expected it to be so hard,
i never expected to fail...

i'm lost right now,
i am really lost,
i do not know what is waiting for me in front,
and i don't even think i have the courage to walk further front,
i know some people say i'm over reacting,
and yes may be i am,
but to tell you the truth,
i am really afraid...

i really hope i will wake up from this nightmare as soon as possible,
i'll still keep on trying,
but my spirits are definately weakening...

Life...