Burnt Face + Fat

my life is a bit upside down d..
i'm a bit messy with my life, too much to do, yet so little time available..

went to Poppy on Saturday..
it turn out NOT to be a good day to club after all..
despite 2 people losing their handphones,
i burnt my face...
somebody actually accidentally used a ciggarette to burnt my face.
my face has a big scar now.. i donno wat to do except to minimise the time i spent lookin at d mirror.

even after everything..
i sense hope..
maybe because i think i see a sign..

i will try my best to work hard towards the 'sign'
i will pour in my heart n soul n everything i have..
because i really cannot accept failing anymore..
this is not what i am suppose to be doing..
i cannot imagine my life 5 years later if i continue doing what i'm doin now..
this is not what i wan to do!!!

even though i noe i'm not suppose to expect but merely hope,
but i cannot take it anymore..
if i don get this, i really donno my worth and value anymore..
i cannot accept being this useless...
i cannot accept being just a plain jane...
NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO...

i noe i'm stubborn and seem like i'm acting very cow..
but pls understand the importance of this thing to me..