The Things I Need

I don't need diamonds nor jewelries,
I don't need branded goods or a trip to France,
what I really need is a sincere heart to tell me he loves me.

I don't dare to wish for forever,
but for the time being, Love me with all you can

if you are SOOOOOO lucky to read this post...

I think i'm falling for you too.. XoXoX0

Malaysian's Plea~~

copied from Anas' blog - letusaddvalue.blogspot.com
its our malaysian's plea and politicians better do something right away!!!

Dear Malaysian Politicians,

Please stop the power chase, call for a truce and focus on the economy.

I do not claim to speak on behalf of all Malaysians, but I have strong convictions that many share my sentiments.

Our concern today is not who rules the country or heads the state governments but the looming bad economy.

Whether Barisan Nasional or Pakatan Rakyat leads, it is meaningless if Malaysians have no job to go to, no money to pay rent and no means to put food on the table.

I am a business owner, like other business owners and managers of corporations I have a responsibility to ensure people under my care and payroll continue to have jobs and a decent income to take home. We work hard and willing to go the extra mile to make sure our nation not only survive this crisis but come out stronger and wiser. We need your help.

Let me explain. I am in the business of Training, Development and Consultancy and have 20 people in my team.

Saedah is 42. She keeps the office clean and helps organise the training rooms. She has four children and her husband is unemployed. She was first hired on a part time basis, because she is very hard working and has a great attitude, we offered her a full time job to help provide a stable income for her family. Even then, when her third child started school this year, it was a struggle for her to buy new school uniforms and other necessities. Saedah lives on a ‘kais bulan, makan bulan’ basis, so, if she is jobless, her tap runs dry.

Samsuri is 27 years old. He lives with his sister and her family in a low cost government flat in Sunway. He does our despatch, helps with various clerical works and occasionally acts as a driver. During the first week at zubedy, we learned that he not only did not have money to buy new clothes and shoes for work, he had no money for lunch. Like Saedah, if he has no job, his tap runs dry too.

Alicia in Client Servicing turns 26 this year. She lives with her dad who is 71 years old and retired. Her mom passed away when she was little. Alicia is a hard-working team member, has a gentle caring outlook and fun to be with. (We like to poke fun at her as she blushes easily). Last May her dad went through a major operation, thank God he has recovered well. Alicia needs a job, both for herself and her dad.

Sudesh, 38, is one of our facilitators. When his father passed away last year, he moved back and lives with his mother in Seremban. He shuttles between Kuala Lumpur and Seremban daily, leaving home sometimes as early as 4 in the morning and returning late at night. He is no stranger to hard work and sacrifice, he knows what he needs to do to survive and to care for his mother, but he too needs a job.

Like fellow Malaysians, every one of us in zubedy needs employment, those that live from hand to mouth like Saedah and Samsuri and others like Alicia and Sudesh with family to care for. We Malaysians need the Malaysian economy to be strong. We need you, our leaders, to work hard and to work together to make our economy viable.

So this is my plea.

Pakatan Rakyat, please stop your attempts to take over the federal government and persuade BN’s lawmakers to join you. Stop all legal proceedings, no more 916 and let go, just let go. The nation can wait till the next general elections if they want change. By doing so, Malaysians will see your party as caring, unselfish and gracious and give you their support in the next elections.

Barisan Nasional, please stop any attempts to take over PR states and win over PR’s lawmakers. You have proven your point with Perak. The nation can wait for the next general elections if they want your party. Focus all your talent, energy and hard work in steering the country out of an economic downturn. By doing so, Malaysians will see your party as caring, unselfish and smart and give you their support in the next elections.

BN and PR! Call for a truce. Get together and compromise. Someone has to give in. Or has hate consumed your heart till it blinds you? You can do it. You have enough intelligent people between you. I am sure you can find solutions. Take the nation to heart. That is why you are in politics in the first place.

Focus on the people.

Focus on the economy.

Anas Zubedy
Managing Director
Zubedy (M) Sdn Bhd

Working

i'm sorry for the late update but i have been BUSYYYYY!!!!!!!!!
just started working for a week, but already i have so many things to do, everyday OT still cannot finish, now i REALLY know how difficult it is to earn a decent wage.

nevertheless, i am loving my job more and more,
maybe because its my colleagues,
maybe because its my job scope,
maybe because i just love it... ^^

anyways, my dear friends, please do not forget to invite me to your yum cha sessions,
i promise to go every time i can...

went poppy y'day, it was ALEXLYN and SIEW LING's b'day...
had an awesome time, but i realise, every time OJ SIM is there, i am sure going home drunk =.=

some things happened, but i don really know how to react to it, hehe...
just let it flow la... don really wanna think about it... :P

Love Ya ALLLLLLLLL

Disappointed

its been 2 months since i've graduated and i'm still unemployed.
i've been searching, i've attended interviews, and i actually got 2 offers,
but i've rejected them, because i don think its the path i wanna go...

i actually gained from each interviews,
i would realise how shallow i am, how naive i am, and how unprepared i am for the real world,
each interview would teach me a bit more about myself, so i would need to work on my flaws and prepare more for the next one...
each interview that rejects me makes me feel like a failure..
i would wonder why have i failed,
i would wonder what my competitors have that i don't?
i begin to question myself, because i really cannot accept this happening...

i never expected it to be so difficult,
i never expected it to be so hard,
i never expected to fail...

i'm lost right now,
i am really lost,
i do not know what is waiting for me in front,
and i don't even think i have the courage to walk further front,
i know some people say i'm over reacting,
and yes may be i am,
but to tell you the truth,
i am really afraid...

i really hope i will wake up from this nightmare as soon as possible,
i'll still keep on trying,
but my spirits are definately weakening...

Life...

I Really Don't Know

i used to be so sure of what i want, and then i would do all i can to achieve it...
i used to be so sure of the 'path' i wanted to walk on, and i would dedicate all my energy on it...
but then again... i was young...
as we grow older, wiser and gain much experiences, our priority changes, views on life also changes, and hence, the things we want also changes.

i really do not know what i want right now,
i have never been so uncertain, i am feeling a bit scare...
i have never been so lost, i don't really feel like going on the journey...
i'm so lost, i don't know what to do now..
all i do now, is play play play, have fun and play...
all i want to do is that too,
please do not burden me with heavy questions nor question my actions..
i do not know and i don't want to know..
i just feel like flying in the clouds with no worries...
i just want to 'drift away'...
away from all the problems and worries in life,

i'm not being irresponsible, i just don't really want to think...
i'm afraid i can't get what i want,
i'm afraid things do not go my way,
i'm afraid i would cry,
i'm afraid of growing up...

i feel like puking when some one asks me what i wan,
i don't know how to answer it,
and i don't want to answer it..

i really don't know....

Thank You

first, i would like to thank Mr. OJ SIM for making it ALL happen ^^ (PS: you know what i mean right??)

next, i would like to thank everybody that have taken care of me during poppy... i'm really sorry for causing all the trouble and i didn't mean it!!! i swear!!! my first time sooooo serious~~ i wasn't even like that during PALL MALL event, nor at sanctuary.. haih~~ my clubber image ruin again~~

thanks to my kai jie for 'nagging' and taking care of my belongings,
thanks to kar wai for not leaving me alone,
thanks to clive kor kor for being my pillar of strength :P,
thanks to sook huay for taking care of me~~ even in the car,
thanks to alex,
thanks to james and huay shan for sending me home,
thanks to irene and chris and everybody else i forgot to mention...
was quite TIPSY so i couldn't remember much, besides i vomited on my LV *sobsssss* lesson learn - never bring LV to clubs.

LOVE ALLLLLLLL OF YOU, Wish ya all HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRR... meet at poh yuet's hse to gamble loooo~~ ^^

Updates...

so.. what have i done ever since i officially graduated??

besides clubbing at least once a week (btw, i didn't go this week yet!! hurray!!), i worked for james and alex at PC Fair, this would be my first and last PC Fair!! so tiring~~
i went for Massive Rave and it was AWESOME!!!!!
i straighten my hair back!! curl was too 'old' for me :P waste money~~
i went for pre-x'mas exchange in mun yee's hse and got a bag,
celebrated x'mas with my dear friends where i had to fake being sleepy just to go home earlier,
yum cha with my first boyfriend n raelene ofcoz, and went to movie twice with kar wai!! Bedtime stories is really sweet!!!

i've been busy looking for jobs, but to no avail, my dream one has not called me *sobs*

i've made some new friends (thanks to jennifer) and... things got abit complicated.. hahaha.. jen's advice for me is to ignore him~~

someone dear to me once said i'm too naive because i truly believe everybody in this world is good. if i'm good to someone, s/he should be good in return right? well, a reality check reveals that there are liars, actors, and people who are just plain evil... hahaha.. luckily i still have friends who truly care for me, and they are always there to help me spot the fakers ^^

love is last on my list right now, as i have told raelene.. 'men in my life comes and go.. not worth mentioning' :P

my dream job.. u better call me!!!!!!!! i don wanna work for other people la... i only wan YOU YOU YOU!!!!!