Fun Fun Fun

its been awhile since i've update my blog, so wat has hpn??

first, i've finished my Final Finals!!! wat a relieve!! hope my results will come out okay :P
secondly, i had like 5 cakes for this year's b'day... thanks to alll my wonderful friends ^^
i also went to casino for d first time!! n realised, i don have any luck in gambling :(
third, it was d pall mall event!!
i have almost 90 friends there, n i think we all had a blast!! d only hiccup was it ended pretty early (1.30am), if it ended later, i'm sure i'll have a few friends drunk... hehe

haih~~ so wat's next??
results will be out on 15 Dec,
there's another event on 17 Dec,
our gang is having a x'mas gift exchange on 21 Dec,
but i think, i'll start looking for a real job..
enough playing already, time to get serious!!! ^^

Love

i received an email from my friend, its about love..
how to love, and how we always seem to take people around us for granted..
many of us, seem to lose it after being together for a long time, we seem to forget the passion that once brought us together, we seem to forget the things we loved each other so much for...
many of us, seem to greedier, wanting more and more until the other party cannot give anymore, this is why, most relationship fail after so long, because we forget, because we became greedier, because we became selfish...

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜， 总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担， 你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你， 不论做什么事情， 只要能一起，就是好的， 但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深， 你开始发现了对方的缺点， 於是问题一个接著一个发生， 你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避, 很多人以为是因为感情淡了， 所以人才会变得懒惰。 错！ 其实是人先被惰性征服， 所以感情才会变淡的。

当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。 所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。 如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来， 完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示： 爱一个人，要了解，也要开解； 要道歉，也要道谢； 要认错，也要改错； 要体贴，也要体谅； 是接受，而不是忍受； 是宽容，而不是纵容； 是支持，而不是支配； 是慰问，而不是质问； 是倾诉，而不是控诉； 是难忘，而不是遗忘； 是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代； 是为对方默默祈求， 而不是向对方诸多要求； 可以浪漫，但不要浪费； 可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

women are monkeys because men are dogs

my guy friend who was recently dumped by his girlfriend for another guy came up with an interesting theory - women are monkeys..

y??
have you seen how monkeys climb trees?
they would use one hand to hold on to a branch while the other hand would reach out for a higher one, they would not let go of the lower branch until they are sure they can hold firmly to the higher one. ^^

my counter theory??
this is because men are dogs...
men are like dogs, they would f**k any bitches they find outside, even though they have a loyal companion waiting for them at home, this is why the streets are filled with stray dogs..

the guy never treated the girl well, at his lowest point of life, the girl was practically working to support him and to pay off his debts, her reward? the guy found another girl outside... after all the cold and hot wars, the guy finally realised his mistake, and begin to appreaciate the girl...
it would be a fairy tale if the guy thought they would live happily after..

the girl is hurt, no matter how the guy apologise, no matter how the girl say she'll forgive you, a part of her is hurt, a part of her feels betrayed, a part of her feel insecure, the love they once shared is not so perfect anymore, how can a fairytale be imperfect??

many times, girls become 'bad' and 'naughty' because they were once hurt, because the men they loved seems to prefer these kind of girls more, since they are spending more time with them, and guys would lie and cheat their girlfriends just to spend more time with these naughty girls. so since guys like them so much, then we would just be 'them'.
at least, this is what happened for my case ^^
no worries, i still know my limits :)

guys, please do not think only you can play games, we girls can definitely win you in this kind of game..
do not be so immature and expect to forgiven by saying a simply 'sorry', we girls could do the same thing, then you can tell me if you can forgive me..

if you do not want to be hurt, please do not hurt other people, i'm a strong believer of the proverb 'Do unto others as you would be undo'. and i do believe in KARMA!!!

i don't know why, men around me tend to be immature jerks, except the fewwwwww (to any guys that read this post :P) haihzzz... where oh where is my prince charming?? ^^

*我很期待我最后一份生日礼物,它不会是名贵的东西,可是多多钱也买不到.*

T.R.U.S.T

T - Truth
R - Reliability
U - Us
S - Sincere
T - Trust

these are the values that should exist in a relationship, without these, the relationship is meaningless, yet 'burdening' for the people involved.

trust need to be gain and earned, it is not to be given lightly... when you betray my trust, do not expect to be forgiven so easily, feelings are hurt and wound would not heal so easily... the scar will be there forever, to remind us of the damage done.

i believe, and truly do, that men do not change overnight.
when i sense your changes, i just kept quiet, my thought begin to wonder, trying to find good explanations and reasons for your changes.
when i believe i am deceived, i would not confront you straight away, because with all the lies you told, i cannot really differeantiate the truth from the lies..
i need to find out, i need to know..
i need to confirm my suspicions..
i believe in myself, i believe in my instincts...

if you don't love me as much, please let me know..
please let me go as i have beg you so many times..
men are selfish, but i sincerely hope that a conscious part of you would realise how hurt i am..
for once, please be truthful to me...
let me know, and please let me go...

people rarely marry the ones they truly love, they always marry the 'right' one, who conveniently is at the right time...
maybe we are meant to be... we are meant to be apart...

Kar Wai's Theory

i think i could relate to kar wai's new found theory,
the theory of 'Stranger-Ship in a Relation-Ship' ^^

i cannot find any words to describe my current situation,
my life now at this state can only be described as 'messy', and even that cannot fully picture what is happening...

i have never felt so hopeless, so uncertain, so.... empty as today..
we love each other so dearly, and yet we chose to stay apart,
no explanation was needed, no words were spoken,
we understood, this is the best for both of us.
even though i can see the love slipping away from us, i could not decide whether to hold on to it, or to just let it flow, such dilemma.
as i had said, i choose to go with the flow...

this is when the Stranger-Ship arised in our Relation-Ship...
we were once so closed, no secrets between us, we could discuss about everything, i would miss you every minute, wondering what you are up to, the bond between us was so strong, our dearest friends are still very shocked why we broke up in the first place.

we broke up because our personalities were so alike and yet so different.
we broke up because our vision and life path for the future were so alike but yet so different.
i know it makes no sense, but then, this is the strange part of the relationship.

i understand, we could never be like before,
i understand, letting each other go is only a matter of time,
we are still stubbornly grasping on to something, because we know, if we let go, we will be left with nothing at all...
what is that thing, we do not know, this is the uncertainty we are willing to gamble on.
maybe if we hold on to each other long enough, something would happen to bring us back together again,
maybe if we hold on to each other long enough, we would understand that we could still live together happily despites our differences.

this is the strange part of the relationship...
deep inside us (at least for me), we know this would not work,
i know that we are just wasting time, hoping it would be easier and less hurtful to let go,
we made an agreement to not see each other so often,
because we knew the flames will start burning again soon ^^
we love each other so much, that we understand being together would only hurt each other more...
we love each other so much, we are willing to let go....

Yes, I Am Stubborn

Yes, I am stubborn, when i make a decision, i will stick to it,
Yes, I have ZERO tolerance for stupid excuses and nonsense, and it is very difficult to convince me...
i do not give myself excuses to fail,
and hence, i do not give people around me many chances to fail...
i always think that people who find themselves reasons to fail, are those people who are not strong nor brave enough to face the truth,
so, you know why u failed, so there should not be a second time right??
when there is a second n third time, it is clearly you are not an achiever.

i have always been tough on myself,
because of this, i have always shown a strong and tough face,
i seldom show my weak and vulnerable side...
this is because i do not want people to see me failing...
it is because my ego do not let me fail...
it is not because i cannot fail,
when you want me to accept your nonsense for not able to achieve the goal,
then please give me room to fail too,
then i want you to tell me how does it feel to be let down and disappointed again and again...

i have never been unreasonable,
it is just very difficult to convince me,
so before you want to talk to me,
please prepare your script,
do not give me the opportunity to 'shoot' you back,
because i will not care for your pride,
if you want to act dumb, then you have no pride, so why should i care?
and most importantly,
please USE YOUR BRAIN before talking to me!!!!!!!!!

一步一步慢慢来~

我只想一步一步慢慢地得到我想要的东西,
其余的我不想多想...
我才21,想拥有的东西太多了,多得数不清.
我现在要做的,就是一步一步慢慢的争取我想要的.
爱情我不要再想了,该来的会来,是我的我也躲不掉.
只是现在,我很清楚我要的是什么,不要的我也骗不了自己.